Black Love 7

i know its been a while!
and im sorry you guys BUT i had to consider where i wanted this to go.
i hope u like it!
and thanks for the comments!

xxx
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My brother wahab?
what?
why wud he do that?
esp when he knew that she was my friend
and he was making her look bad.
i got quiet for a while.
then looked up at her.
she had tears in her eyes.
but she also had a look that i will never forget
a look of hatred that seemed as if it was overtaking her mind an soul
one that sent a surge of terror through my back

why the hell was she looking at me like that
and why the hell did she want to meet me if she was mad at me, or my brother
who has passed away might i add....

"danah look, its over, my brother died. your love with meshal also died, and meshal is with me now. we're engaged. i dont get what you're aiming to gain out of meeting here today. all i know is that my brother must have been both sorry and relieved that you and meshal are not together anymore. sorry for breaking two people who loved each other apart. and relieved that his friend had nothing to do with someone who's reputation exceeded her. danah its time you move on. its time you give up. its time you leave me alone!"

and with that tears started to flow down my face.
i dont understand why i was crying.
maybe i was just hormonal?
point is she really got to me.
i came here today even though my gut feeling had told me to do otherwise
but i came.
for old times' sake.
and this is what we end up doing to each other.
making each other cry.

danah quickly wiped away her tears.
"lulu, dont you wanna hear how your brother died?"

"theres more to this?"

"yeah, there is."

"start talking"

"on one condition though"

"that is?"

"you hear me out, everything that i have to say. ur gonna want to intterupt, but please dont"

"fine. TALK"

"i started to date meshal when i was 16, he was hot, but we lacked compatibility. he was the hot guy that everyone wanted. and i was the girl that went after that guy that everyone wanted. i didnt even like meshal. i guess i also did it to make him jealous. he was the one who caught my eye. i had a huge crush on him. but he didnt share my feelings. so i had to follow any other guy who took my mind off of him. i needed to forget him. and thats exactly what i did. i started getting physical with meshal. so physical that wahab could tell simply by looking at meshals eyes. he read into his soul. he knew everything."

"so wahab being the gentleman that he wsa decided to stop whatever u guys were doing?"

"yes. he talked meshal into breaking up with me, and meshal did, but after he had done so i realized that i had falled for him. badly. meshal had become the man that i wanted. and what made matters worse was that now for the second time, i was regected. i felt like an ugly dog that nobody wanted. even you got so much attention although u didnt want it. but i, i got the wrong attention, i lost the attention of the second man that i had grown to love."

"danah you do realize that you're talking about my fiance right? like right in front of me. im marrying him in a month you know."

"for now, thats the plan....but lulu plans change, nothing is written in stone....."

"danah what..." but she interupted me.

"lulu let me finish my story."
"you and your brother pissed me off. as a said before, i was jealous of you even though u were ntohing but nice to me. maybe thats why you got on my nerves....because u were so nice!
i decided to talk to one of my old friends.....his name was 3abood....Al-Flani"

"YOU BITCH!"

"listen to the end please. you promised."

"finish quickly cuz i cant even look at your face right now."

"i told him to make you fall for him. i did that to prove to your brother wahab that even YOU were fallable, that people made mistakes. i told wahab to follow us around, to go to the beach whenever i knew that you would be there for your occasional walk, just so you wud coincidently bump into each other. that was my plan. to make you fall for him."

"but i didnt, i didnt make that mistake. i proved to you that i was well brought up. i had my own morals that i knew could not be bent or sacrificed. not for anyone."

"yea but you were also stupid enough to go to your brother. you proved that you never had experience with men. not really"

"so me telling wahab made your friend kill him? thats how my brother died? because my so called best friend wanted to test me?" i screamed at her!

"not really" she looked right at me, then lowered her head. she was playing with her hands. the she decided to finally say something.
"lulu, this is going to get worse every second that i try to explain myself. i did this wanting to hurt you. and i did. but i hurt myself and others too. if youve had enough then leave. if you wanna know the absolute truth......u have to be strong. and to let me finish to the end...."

"danah what else did you do! why are u ruining my life!"

thats when she smiled. " lulu, what was ruined was in the past. i have a man that i need to get back. i hope that doesnt ruin your plans for the future though, lets say i hope u dont have high hopes, cuz hes going to come back to me...."

after all that...
she still has the audacity
to look me in the eye
and say that
shes going to regret it
but, i need to hear the end of this
once and for all

thats when i decided to not interrupt her. for the sake of getting this done with.
so i could punish her
for the awful things she did to my family
to my brother
to....me.