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3ala shan 3yoon bluelilies ;**
dedicated to both bluelilies and my beautiful little sister who hass a presentation at school tomorrow. It'll rock believe me ;)

and bluelilies hunni dont forget ill be posting daily so dont worry ull get enough of me :P

please dont mind the spelling errors, spell check has been going nutso on me.
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khalid.....he was my cousin. he was very close to meshal after what happened to wahab and i knew for a fact that he loved me since we were both ten.

he was tanned and muscular, he had a dimple on one cheek and hair that was so messy you could lose something in it...his grin though, it was a bad boy grin...but no, like i said before i was lulu the saint no guy, no matter how handsome he was could get me to agree to date him.
not that khalid didnt try. he talked to his mother, my mother, my grandmother, he even convinced his older sister aljour to talk to me but i wouldnt but i wouldnt budge. Guys were the last thing on my mind then and i wanted nothing to do with them.

after he became close with meshal i would bump into him frequently at the hospital and it was always awkward. this continued up until meshal got out of the hospital. it was then, and i think this was because he did not see me frequently anymore, that he started to annoy me with phone calls every night. i must have gotten about 20 missed calls per night and i was freaked out in the beginning because wahab was gone and i had noone to go to and ask to make this stop. it wasnt until one day my mother asked me to call khalid and remind him that his family was invited to lunch at our house and she handed me her phone to call him.

it was only then that to my utter shock did i realize that the number that had been calling me continuously for the last few months was none other than khalids number and that i had to put an end for this once and for all at the lunch we were having that day. i called meshal that day and told him about this because we were already engaged now and i didnt tell him about the calls since it was already a part of my nightly routine - ignoring the unknown caller. Meshal was furious, he told khalid to stay away from me and that we were engaged to be married, that if he was to approach me in any way after today he was going to have to deal with meshal's wrath. this apperently struck a vein and khalid no longer called me any longer, i also found out from meshal that he would walk out of a place whenever khalid walked into it and that they never hung out anymore. i had been the reason for the detoriation of that friendship but to me it seemed that khalid was the one that caused it not me. he decided to act on impulse and call me, more like invade my privacy with calls, even thought he knew i was no longer his.

this was really not good. Meshal wouldnt walk out of his wedding if khalid walked in and khalid knew that. maybe this was why he decided to come. maybe he was spiteful. maybe he was up to something that would shock the both of us. all i knew was that meshal was going to either freak out when he sees khalid or he will totally ignore him unless khalid provokes him. either way he will no longer be in a good mood and it will definately somewhat ruin my wedding day.

i was not going to let that happen. i couldnt let khalid ruin my day. even though it was with a man that i no longer trusted. what i had to do now was the hardest thing ive ever done before, but yes i decided to do it for my wedding. i went back into the living room and found my phone. i called khalid:

"aloo khalid ill talk to you in the side door that leads to the kitchen. be there in 7 minutes, and dont you dare be late or tell anyone about that or else i will personally murder you"

and with that i shut the phone, got up from the living room and headed towards the garden waiting for him to arrive....all the while, i kept thinking to myself which him was i thinking about?

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I got into my dress and attended the wedding party
we decided to have it in our garden since it was big enough and we only wanted to invite people that were close relatives.

all night i kept wondering why i was going through with this. i have proven time and time again to myself that i do not trust meshal and when dana came and told me that story i because more sure of this. my father was sick, he had heart problems. and my mother? she needed me to get married so she can travel abroad with my father in order to either get him a heart transplant or surgery. That was why i cudnt say no to marrying meshal now. the feelings of anxiety accompanied me all night. i was tired and my brain was going through millions of thoughts per minute. Meshal still was not here but he was expected to arrive soon.

i need to act like I'm ok. like we're ok. for now at least. when meshal and i are in that house together i will confront him. i need to hear his side. i need to know what he was thinking and what really happened.

my phone was ringing and i was shocked when i saw the number on the screen. i didnt have it saved under a contact because i had lost touch with that person a long time ago. my heart started to beat furiously and i had to contemplate the idea of whether i should or shouldn't pick up. it has been SO long.. why now? why haven't i received this call earlier? i decided to answer just to know why...

"guwa lulu, sim3eeni lulu ni6reeni ilaila w ya wailich in 6ila3tay wiya mesh3alo gabil la a7acheech...please lulu"

"khalid arjook la tiye ma abeek w mesh3al a9lan ma yabeek itye!!"

"iy9eer 5air ya lulu"

with that he shut the phone, and with horror i realized that i was in for a wedding night that i had never planned to turn out like this....

Promise

hey guys
I know I've been away for a LONG time
but i PROMISE I'm going to start posting everyday next week
i just need this time period to be over and I'm all yours

Again, sorry to my 32 followers but the stuff that Ive been going through has made my life really hectic.

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